Update needed…

It has been a couple of weeks since I updated, so here goes, in no particular order.

Joshua walks everywhere.  Today, he held my hand and we walked two houses (really one house) down to check the mail together.  I don’t like our joint mailboxes, but it is nice that they are all uniform.  He will keep his shoes on as long as he is walking, but the moment he sits, off they come.  Wonder where he gets that from???  He discovered this past weekend, that his walk behind ‘Mater that has a seat to ride on…well, the seat lifts up so you can put small toys in it….or feet!!  He can stand in ‘Mater holding on the bar for steadiness.  I told him that wasn’t allowed and he just grinned.  I got him out put him in the middle of the floor and he stood up walked back over and did it again….and once again, then I distracted him with a walk to his room.  He also again this weekend attempted to climb onto the fireplace hearth.  That is not allowed either. 

We went to see his pediatric urologist on Friday and they have scheduled him for Aug 18 to fix his….issue.  The doctor said he would be at the hospital for about 2 hours and in the operating room for about 15 minutes.  I am glad that this issue will soon be fixed!! 

I went to the doctor today and she is starting me on progesterone.  The first step in getting to regulation.  I go back in about a month for more blood work.  They confirmed that I am not pregnant, duh!!, I told them I wasn’t, but they wanted to make sure.  I was so sick all the time the first time around, I think I would know the second time around.  Now that Jeff and I thought we were ready, I feel like Jeff is having second thoughts.  It will all work out somehow.  And many, many people do it on a lot less than we have.  I think the second time around must be more scary, because you really know how much things cost.  It is excitingly scary. 

On Joshua’s walking, he has learned the speed walk, nearly running thing.  He gets so excited and his feet can’t seem to go fast enough.  After an eating slump, he has geared back up.  This weekend at Sweet Tomatoes, he ate really good.  They have good fresh ingredients for him, he loves peas (like his Mommy) and they have fresh ones.  My mother went and got him his very own ice cream cone.  He did really good with it.  It was so tasty that he didn’t drop any of it on him.  His sugar didn’t kick in quite fast enough, 10 minutes later in the car, he was fast asleep. 

Joshua has also learned a new trick.  Take a mouth full of drink and make that farting/raspberry sound with your mouth.  Your drink goes everywhere….he thinks it is so funny.   I do not.  It is on the list of not allowed things!

I didn’t post for Father’s Day.  I think about my Dad everyday.  And often wonder what advice he would offer on life events.  I really miss the way he would look over his glasses at me and say “Susan, we need to talk”.  I miss sitting on his green swing and talking.  I miss the stories that he always told.  With our upcoming trip to San Diego, I remember a story Dad told me about when he was stationed there.  He was working with a group that took care of the petty cash and inventory.  And how there was one guy that no one liked to work with.  He told me how he would go out with his buddies for drinks.  And how of all the places he was stationed, he liked San Diego the best.  I wonder what he would say about Joshua.  About my wedding, about our home, and about everything that has happened in the last nearly 4 years that he has been gone.  I remember the ride to Haskell, to the reunion, one year when my sister was pregnant.  That was the year that I realized that I was just like my father in so many different ways.  I see my father when I look at my hands, at my long fingers and nail beds.  I see my father when I look at my feet, they are his feet, only smaller (slightly smaller).  I took flowers over to him a month or so ago.  It was the first time I had been in a long while.  His old flowers were gone, and his stone looked so bare.  The vase wasn’t even standing up.  I didn’t take a flag, but I will remember next time to take one with me.  I still see old blue pickups like him, and turn to see if it’s his…or even if the driver looks like him.  I didn’t have a great relationship with my father until I became an adult.  And even then, we never fully seen eye to eye.  I can remember taking his Whataburger when he was in the hospital.  He would take a cheeseburger kid’s meal, but wouldn’t eat the fries.  The fries didn’t agree with him.  Most days, he wouldn’t finish the cheeseburger.  I remember him not wanting me to leave, and I would call work crying and spend the afternoon at the hospital.  I remember the time we spent at the Hospice House….the setting was so lovely.  Our this big windows, you could see the fireflies and rabbits.  I remember getting Dad a banana popsicle, he barely ate 1/3 of it, before he needed a nap.  I can remember summer vacations, and going to the old missions/forts is Central Texas.  Dad was so fascinated with history.  I remember them as being boring and having a creepy haunted feel to them.  I can remember going to the Fort Worth Stock Show & Rodeo as a kid and Dad was so excited about it all.  The rodeo, the food and especially the midway.  That part was his favorite hands down, he would ride just about anything.  I with Joshua could have had the chance to get to know his Papa.  I will do my best to create my father with my memories for Joshua to know.  I miss him.

Oh yea….tomatoes are starting to show up at the grocery and restaurants again!!!! 

Our California trip plans are starting to come along.  We are making reservations and getting things to do lined up.  I haven’t taken a real vacation like this since I was in high school, so I am getting so excited.  I have taken weekend trips here or there, but those are not a week long vacation!!